Trust in the Lord with all of your heart and lean not on your own understanding, in all your ways acknowledge Him and He will direct your path. Proverbs 3:5
These have been very dear words to my soul as Jeff and I have navigated these last few months in our life. We have had some unexpected bumps in our road that have caused us to take a step back and evaluate our life and how we are doing it.
I’ll give you the short version (if I can) . I’ve been having stomach problems for almost a year and I’ve seen several doctors to try to figure out what’s going on. I had some scans done a few months back and they showed that my gallbladder was only working 14%. So they knew we needed to get it taken out. Now I recognize that this is not a major situation, really I do. But anytime you have to go in and have a surgery, there is plenty of anxiety to go around wanting to make sure the procedure goes well, recovery has no complications, the financial aspect of everything, dealing with the kids and making sure they weren’t scared….figuring out how I was NOT going to pick up Gia for X amount of days, Jeff missing work and missing out on fun Summer plans, and the list goes on. There was a lot of planning and sacrificing that was going to have to be done. But obviously I REALLY wanted to feel better.
Right before my gallbladder surgery, I had to get a routine ultrasound on a thyroid nodule I’ve known about for a few years now. When the test results came back, it had doubled in size this past year and my doctors were concerned and wanted to get it taken out.
I went from a fun Summer full of plans to 2 surgeries within 3 weeks. None of this was even on my radar a month earlier. I was frustrated and a little disappointed to say the least.
During this same few weeks we got devastating news that Jeff’s mom has been diagnosed with breast cancer and is facing surgery and treatments in the next few weeks.
I am very blessed that none of my health issues turned out to be serious (my thyroid nodule was benign!), but Peggy’s news just had us floored. She takes great care of herself, so it was a complete shock to everyone.
During all of this, I was really overwhelmed if you want to know the truth. I held it together pretty well, but it was a lot to take in, in a few short weeks.
This is the part where Jeff and I started evaluating our life. How much time we spend with each other, how much we do and don’t workout, how much sleep we get, our diet, the chemicals we bring into our house. All of it. We all know that these things DO make a difference in our health and we have made a commitment to the best of our ability, sanity and budget to try to give each other and our baby girls, the healthiest life we know how.
We are committing to try to sleep more, laugh harder, play outside more, love hard, eat a plant-based diet, make more memories, teach our kids the importance of food and exercise, and more than anything to love God, life and each other with everything inside of them! We know that we aren’t perfect and we will have days where we splurge, and I already have things I don’t plan on switching that some people might think I should. I’m gonna mess up some recipes and have lazy days where I don’t go on my daily walk, but we are re-committing our entire family to God and taking care of our bodies and most importantly, trusting Him with the things we cannot control.
I’m trusting God with my weaknesses and asking Him to help me when I have bad days or don’t feel like it. I’m trusting God to help me be creative and make this journey fun for my family. I’m trusting God that He will fill in the gaps of my life as I continue to educate myself on a better way to live. I’m trusting God as I add new things into my life that weren’t there before that He will make them MORE fulfilling than the things we are taking out of our life.
Maybe more than anything I’m just reminding myself through all of this to simply trust Him. He knows what’s best for us. I know in my heart that I haven’t fulfilled some of the things in my life that I’m meant to do and I believe this is His nudge to help me get ready and prepared for them. God has reminded me through all of this that He has His best for us, now maybe it’s time for me to do the same. Treat myself good!
I don’t know what this journey looks like or how long some of my eating/workout trends will last, but I know that God is calling our family to be better and stronger than before, mentally, physically, spiritually and emotionally.
When sickness and disease comes to your house, followed by the anxiety of the unknown, the questions of why and a ton of other emotions…don’t forget that you have a choice! You can let it overtake you or you can take action and grow and allow God to show you HIS path for your life. So cheers to the unknown, figuring it all out one day at a time and finding all the cool vegan restaurants in town lol! We’ve been eating vegan for a few weeks now and we are surprisingly are loving it so far! I’m sure there will be plenty of recipes to share in the near future! Make sure you follow along over at my Instagram account for all the fun!
Here’s to raising my own bar…and for myself!